Sunday, December 09, 2007

SOME DOUBTS - KALEIDOSCOPE TRIALS

Well for about two or three days now - I have been having some serious doubts about
anything I have created...there is this voice screaming inside my head telling
me - of course I am not an artist - I am just faking it....
I am just trying to fool myself...then there is a lil meek voice that does
enjoy creating whatever but I really do not think I will ever be good enough
for anything...
Of course this is just the mental anguish I have been going through with
trying to live being severely depressed - I really thought that I was
getting some relief from all those negative feelings and doubts but they have been coming
back in full force...Geez - now I do not know what to do.
Today I thought I would share some kaleidoscopes that I have played with but have not shown
yet - not too sure about them...but here they go:


All very different - all evoking different emotions...can you tell that the darker ones
were made just these past two days...during the doubting...
I do not know which way I will go now...just thinking things through...
Trying to stay positive and fighting the demons in my head but it is
a battle I have been fighting way too long and losing...
sorry about being a bit of a bummer here...just tired and overloaded right now!!!
Thanks for stopping by (hopefully I did not scare anyone away) and Looking!!!

3 comments:

Firefly Hill said...

Ellie,

I am so sorry you are feeling down and not confident in your ability! Your artwork is beautiful and you should keep putting it out there. Maybe you should work with those brighter colors and you will feel a little better? What about a line of notecards and then put them on etsy? I hope you feel better...

Annie

Firefly Hill said...

Ellie,

I showed my husband your work and he also likes it very much! Just thought you might like to know. Glad to hear you are feeling better...

Annie

Anke said...

Hi Ellie, hey the most important thing is that you like your art! That it makes you feel good. You had that comic up not too long ago about 'Art is in the eye of the beholder'. For me I really enjoy looking at your new Caleidoscope creations and I think you get with every single new one better. Not one looked the same as the one before. Every single one evokes different feelings in me. So keep going and work you dark feeling out in producing art! ;)